Today’s prompt for The Red Dress Club was to write about sloth or one of the seven deadly sins. This piece is about forgiveness, something we all struggle with.
I think my heart is cluttered.
My health is great. My mental stability is just fine. HA- I’m sure hubby would tell a different story during my ratchet time of the month.
I’ve taken a path in my life that I’m very comfortable with – honestly no regrets. I have discovered a comfortable level of peace and understanding in my life.
But something just doesn’t seem right….
I’m sure I’ve told all the people that are important to me how much I appreciate them. Anyone who knows me – knows I speak from my heart, KEEPING IT REAL along the way; the good and the bad.
So my heart can’t be cluttered from that…..
Are there things I need to get off my chest to a few people that have pissed me off along the way? Naw, cause I’m certain I took care of that awhile ago.
I’m stumped and not sure what could be causing this uneasiness I’ve been feeling lately.
I’ll admit. I have a mean-streak and I don’t forgive that easy. In fact, I don’t forgive at all. Especially, when I have accepted and overlooked lots of pain and rejection from people. I just compartmentalize the issue and move on.
But maybe, just maybe forgiving would help to release the small compartment that is now the size of a storage unit.
I’m not entirely convinced and I’m a little skeptical about the process because quite frankly, I’m still pissed at the betrayal. I won’t get into the specifics, you know who you are.
Possibly it’s why my heart feels cluttered.
I probably need to let it go – be free of the bullshit. But I’m not so sure about this approach. Sometimes, I like being angry and pissed off it helps me get through the pain. Also, some people just don’t deserve to be forgiven – plain and simple.
This is gonna take some time. I need advice.
Tell me. Why and how do you forgive?
Triplicity 